Technically This Should Be Called "Fapping With Porn: Day 1".

Regardless of the title, my porn-watching experience was chill.

If you've been following along, then you know: TODAY IS THE BIG DAY.

THE DAY GARRIDAN GOT TO GO BACK TO WATCHING PORN.

So what was it like?

When it came time to fap, I wasn't able to light candles, turn off the lights, and play soft jazz music like I wanted to: I wasn't in a complete hurry, so there was some edging, but I also had somewhere TO BE.

Looking back, there were a few things I noticed:

• I didn't turn on the porn before I started fapping. I got hard, edged a little, and THEN turned it on.
• Even after I turned it on, I stopped fapping, and even got a little harder.
• I came harder than I had without porn, and harder than I did before I stopped watching porn. 
• I was able to last longer than I used to while watching porn. 

I know this:

At this point, watching porn while fapping is an enhancement to the experience, And not 100% a means to an end.

At this point, I was able to actually enjoy the porn I was consuming. I didn't NEED it.

Will I go back to watching porn EVERY time I fap? Not sure, but I don't think so. That being said, I don't think I'll shy away from it completely either.

Wrap-up to come.