I didn't get off because of the erotic massage, but for a different reason.

I had been talking to guy I met online (no, not the guy from yesterday). We wanted to meet, but the only time both of us had was during lunch. I was reluctant to, since I had had a busy day, but we still met. He had mentioned he was sore, so I volunteered a little massage. It's always nice to brush up on your skills. And happy endings make everyone happy.

Since we didn't have time to chit chat, we both took off our clothes and got right to business. 

I started rubbing his back, and my bepis was pretty much eye-level for him, so naturally, he reached out and grabbed it. As things progressed and got more sensual, he started jacking me off. I tried to hold out - I have to get back to work and won't be able to concentrate if I let go - but then I remembered from yesterday, that my brain gets too worked up, and I begin to overthink things. So I just let everything happen.

And everything happened on his chest.

And then he let everything happen all over his stomach.

It was the perfect way to destress in the middle of a crazy day, and I was able to concentrate again.

Though the massage session was erotic and sensual, I don't think that was the reason I got off. I think it was this:

Maybe I get off on power.

I'm a Scorpio, so we love our power. And I wasn't replaying the scenes in my head that had turned into glorified GIFs to get myself off.

Power over another person, power to make them feel good, power that they give me to make them feel a certain way, and let them get me off.

And after being powerless for the better part of a year, my body is getting off to having a certain sort of power again.

But hell. If I can make someone feel this good, and my body seems to like it, maybe I should charge for this, or at the very least, put myself in more positions where I have power.